In coming here to the AKH, you could say that I started a new chapter in my life; a new beginning. I wouldn't have survived the weekend of September 7 - I know I keep reiterating this fact, but to me it is vital as it is a constant reminder of the horrible state I was in both mentally and physically - had I not come here; hence the new start to life. Since coming here, I have been doing everything in my nature to ensure that I nurse and nourish my body back to health. I am just as eager and anxious as a child who finds a genie in a lamp and is granted three wishes and states them, to cooperate and work with the doctors and nurses because they know what they are doing.
Funnily enough, in starting my life again here, it is almost like a deja vu moment as I began my life as a toddler here as well. Not here in the psychiatric intensive station at the AKH hospital, but at the kindergarten that is here for workers. Back then, my mom worked here and so I, as well as my brother, went to the kindergarten. I vividly remember kindergarten, and all the fun I had, how creative we all were - just like I am now, with my friendship bracelets, origami, window colors, knitting, etc. Creativity and positivity were flooding the room back then, and they are here too - right here, right now. To add to the situation, my nickname in here is 'the baby' as this station is for adults and I am the youngest by a few years as I only turned eighteen in April of this year. So I guess you could say that the baby's growing up. I began my life into childhood here, and now my new life begins here as well.
It's a fresh start. I succeeded once and this time won't be any different.
Hannah, congratulations! frest start sounds exciting. I had once tough time, not illness but relationship, in the end I walked out of it giving myself other chances to restart! bad experience is terrible but eventually it builds up a stronger YOU. once you gone through it, life is brand new ahead. there may be more challenges down the road but you will be a different you already to manage them. You are not a 'baby' anymore :) I enjoy every 'fresh start', it only gets better each time.
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So true anon. Ever since coming here, I haven't taken anything for granted and have really tried to re-establish myself and my personality to ensure that I can then make a smooth return into the real world - hopefully soon.
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keep going Hannah, you are not alone.
ReplyDeleteyou are being great and brave to share the bad experience, not everybody can do this. It helps to cure more and faster. It shows the strong mind and positive will inside you. Admirable!
That's true, although I created this blog for myself as a way of looking back at all the achievements I've had in times where I'm feeling down, it's also a place for others to learn about the illness, which gives me that little extra boost. Thanks again!
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Thank you dear anon, I hope to continue on this successful journey until I am fully recovered :)
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